Saturday, November 29, 2008


Well, today I have paint for the house. I have paint brushes and rollers. What I don't have is the energy to paint. I really hate to paint, but I don't have much choice. The walls only need a little prep work and they will be ready to "complete."

I should also mention that the Christmas tree is up. I am thinking its gonna be a good Christmas here.

Please remember that I have to pay the bills...

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Another day

Life simply keeps rolling along, and I have decided to post some more of my usual ramblings. Yes, I know that sometimes my ramblings seem to be the ramblings of a dysfunctional 8 year old, but that is just how I feel. Today, I don't have anything to talk about. My life is going well, finances are fine, and the daughter seems to be happy and well adjusted. My girlfriend appears happy with me and doesn't complain much about my shenanigans. I am staying away from any of the "on line" businesses as they don't seem to pay well. Just been concentrating on getting ready to fish, hunt, and having a good time.

Over the past few months I have tried to surround myself with people that mkae me feel good. I seem to be accomplishing that task. Everyday brings new/old friends into my life and I become more and more content. God seems to be blessing me with just a little more peace everyday.

The last item is a sad note for me and the office that I work at. Susan is leaving us. She was called yesterday and told that she had gotten a job that she had applied for. It is a sad, dark day for us and she will be missed. Although, I will say congratulations to her and good luck to the soon to be Mr. and Mrs...seems that she will be marrying Roy when she gets moved to his hometown. Goodby Susan...stay in touch.

please remember that I have to pay the bills...

Sunday, November 23, 2008

My Life

The smallest joys in life are the most important. When they arrive they are really appreciated and help us to smooth out the rough spots. Lately, my life has been blessed with an abundance of small joys. I am truly a happy man...

My friend Bill stopped by the house this weekend. I love to talk with Bill and have missed him over the past few years. We have a bunch to catch up on and I assure everyone that I won't go that long again without seeing my friends.

Life's small joys.... I am just waiting for my next large joy to arrive...not even a clue what it will be. Bet I will like it. Until then....

Please remember that I have to pay the bills....

Thursday, November 20, 2008


It is snowing outside right now. I love the snow and all of the things it brings. I can't believe its winter and all is well. I feel peaceful and have looked at my own mortality and spirituality. Life seems to flow along well and so am I. I can only wish that everyone could begin to develop the sense of well being that I have been feeling. Merry Christmas to all...

and please remember that I have to pay the bills

Sunday, November 16, 2008

I am alive

No lightning strike, so I guess I will keep making blog entries.

Please remember that I have to pay the bills.

For the first time in a long time

Today, could be my last entry ever. Today, I am going to do something that I haven't done in years.I am going to Church. I hope that I don't get struck by lightning.

Please remember that I still have to pay the bills.

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Just me

Here I am looking forward to the weekend. It is rainy and going to be cold. I love this weather (although it does make my old bones hurt). I am getting some curtains for my sliding glass door today. There have been so many changes to my house and I am so happy with them. Life seems to be just flowing along and keeping me happy. I feel as if I grow as a person everyday and strive to place people around me that make me feel good. You know if this is a reference to you. Smile it makes everyone happy.

Remember that I still have to pay the bills.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Puppy eyes

My eyes have just started to open, again. Just like the eyes of a small pup. I am seeing my world in a new light. I have listened to my friend Priscilla (nobody calls her that but me) and am working on healing me. She knows the troy 1.0 version. She knows where I need to be. Michelle is a fantastic woman and wants me to be me,again.I know that our feelings for one another will help each of us to be able to assist the other throughout all that will come. I believe that I can be. I believe that I will be. I know that it is meant to be. My friends, old and new, have rallied around me to show their support. For that, I am very grateful. I have received huge amounts of love,compassion, and caring. Everyone that reads this knows what they have freely given and, to all concerned, I thank you. Whole heartedly. God Bless us all. I will be there for any/all of my friends when there moment of need arises just as they have been there for me.

Please remember that I have to pay the bills.

Thursday, November 6, 2008

no title

Lo there, do I see my father,
Lo there, do I see my mother,
my sisters and brothers,
Lo there, do I see the line of my people, back to the beginning,
Lo, they do call to me, they bid me take my place among them,
In the halls of Valhalla where the brave may live forever.

please remember that I have to pay the bills

Saturday, November 1, 2008


The last couple of days have just been terrible. She who shall remain nameless and I have fought about us. Yes, we are getting divorced, but the attacks on the other people in my life have begun. I just want my divorce now. I have seen a side to her that makes me cringe. She has been mean to people when there is just no reason.

We could have worked this out, we didn't. It is now time to move along. I know that she reads my blog sometimes. I hope that she reads this and knows that the love I had for her was deep and we worked very hard to destroy that love. We have accomplished what we started. I am not gong to go into details, there is just no need.

The last item... I hope her new boyfriend decides not to try and kick this fat old mans butt. There may be a good lesson in there for the boy.
I have been a decent enough teacher thru the years.

Please remember that I have to pay the bills.