Friday, December 26, 2008

Flying Time

Wow, Time sure does fly.Christmas has finally slid past. I have been talking to Kenny about going fishing. We think we might go south. Although, I did get a 20 bucks off coupon for a place in Port Clinton. I look forward to the fun no matter where it is.I don't have a serious note tonight since I am not in a serious mood.

please remember that I have to pay the bills

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Those that don't know me

There are so many people out there today that know what is best for me. Their advice flows like a polluted river into my life. They advise me about everything in my life. They advise THOSE AROUND me. They even advise each other. I am not talking about the people close to me that I solicit advise from, but am writing about those that believe they truly know me.

The question for those that offer advice is...

What are my hurts?
What are my wins?
How do I really feel?
Last, and certainly not least...What do I see when I close my eyes?

If you know those answers then you know enough to advise me.

There are people out there that know the answers to these questions. There are people out there heavily affected by the advice they receive. My answer to it all is that you should follow your passion. You should find your passion, reach out for it, and follow where it leads. Should you be able to follow this passion you will always be able to find some happiness. Choose to not follow your passions and you will have to order your wine by the glass as you will not be able to order the bottle from the list.

The advice from these people creates rifts. The rifts are so huge they cannot be covered over. The rifts are like scars that require spackle to cover them. Perhaps with a little paint the scars can be glossed over and maybe even forgotten about.

There are changes in my life that scare me. These are huge changes that make me so very afraid. I do not know what will happen or if there will even be an actual problem... I guess there is a problem since it is weighing on my mind so heavily. I have begun to look at the paths in front of me and I see many ways to walk. I do not know which path I will follow.

There are several of you out there that have been affected by all that has transpired. This is my way and time to say...I am truly sorry for the hurts that I have caused and that I am striving to be a better,stronger person. I will be a better person. I will be a nicer person. I will enjoy the things on this Earth that I had begun to ignore as I got caught up in the struggles of life and listened to the advice of those around me. I am ashamed that I have listened to people that don't even know me.

There are several people out there that this is directed towards. All of you read this blog. Some people that read this blog have nothing written here directed towards them.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

My Stuff

Its raining and cold here. I have been working on the abstract me. I guess I have never been real artsy, but I have some abstract thoughts. I did a little reflecting on my situation today. I have decided that...all is well. The ship is sailing in a direction I like and I have been clearing the chaos and confusion out of my life.

I like me better that way.

Also, let me say that the pictures were very nice and I deeply appreciate the Pro Bono work from some of my old buddies. I don't think there will be any need to testify, but I do appreciate your hard work. I owe you.

Until the next time please remember that I have to pay the bills...

Saturday, December 6, 2008

Why oh Why

Yes, I know its late. Just got in a short time ago and thought I would get caught up. I am not even gonna write about the BAD things that have happened. Should the people responsible for the bad things read this (and I am sure they do) you know who you are and you know that the fight is on.

Lets talk about the good things...This evening I had an interesting realization. I feel good. I feel good about the people around me and am pleased with the things they do. I have been surrounding myself with good,honest,moral and upstanding people. I like it.

I finished my vacation schedule at work and am now planning my fishing trip. Its gonna be a blast.

Well, until the next time please remember that I have to pay the bills

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Baby its cold outside

Wow...its cold outside today. I guess I have a pretty full day today. I am actually going to work my 8 hours and then Travis and I are going to take a woodstove out of a house and haul it to his house. I bet that it is heavy. Not a big deal. After that I will look into dinner and just get ready for Thursday. I am definitely looking forward to the weekend. I am hoping for some interesting things to do. Its seems like in the winter time I am just blah and don't make a lot of plans. Summer is the time of year that I prefer. Well until then

please remember that I have to pay the bills